That certain someone.

Pretty lucky for me for people to think that I'm attached eh.
Sadly, I don't have this 'luxury' or 'fun' as some might call it.

The next r/s I have, it's gonna be my first serious one and last.
Haha. And yes, I do have a soft spot for a certain someone.

Points to note:

1. I am NOT ready for a r/s.
2. This certain someone is from a neighbourhood school.
3. And what I like about him, is the fact that he loves God with all his heart, and loves everyone without judging them.
4. Sounds quite easy to fulfil #3?? Think again.
5. It's been long since I last felt this longing for someone. Then again, I had small infatuations here and there, never bothered about them anyway. This time, I WILL.
6. And even if I'm not ready, I'll be eyeing him, and keeping my options open.

Let's plan a little for the future right now.

IF I intend to get married at 26 or 27, and want to date the same guy for at least 4 years, and if it takes me SO LONG to actually reveal any of my feelings, I'll have to start at 20.
That makes it 20-16=4 years left of SINGLEDOM.
Probably a longer time left, if I postpone my plans of marriage. BUT, older women = less fertile? Haha. Nahhhh.

OR

IF I intend to focus on my career (which seems much wiser), and probably be one of the top 3 Singapore's RICHEST women, I'll need to study so hard right now to make up for the lack of intellect. That would equate to My death day-16=Unknown years left of SINGLEDOM.

Yes yes, I know I should be putting 'my retirement day' instead of 'my death day'. Every one seems to make 'death' such a taboo. I intend to work and learn till the day I die anyway.
"Everyone knows they are going to die, but nobody believes it. If we did, we would do things differently." This is probably one of the few lines I have remembered off the book 'Tuesdays with Morrie'.

In actual fact, I'm rather interested in the topic of death.
Been feeling ladicius these days. But nothing big.


I LOVE GOD.
I LOVE AMPLIFY.
I LOVE ST MARGS.
I LOVE YOU.

Thank you world, for tuning in to Nat Speaks again.
Till then. Keep yourselves busy with feeding your brain with brain food (in layman's terms, KNOWLEDGE).
KNOWLEDGE = POWER.