Reflection, Swimming, Sick

I thought over some advice a good friend of mine gave me a few days back.
Never would have thought that this friend of mine went through shit so similar to mine.

While thinking over the words this friend of mine said to me over a phonecall, I decided to go for a swim.

Upon reaching Queenstown Swimming Complex.. I realised there was NO ONE using the three pools at all!
YAY! All 9 lanes to myself! (Actually, there is only a standard 8 lanes for an olympic sized swimming pool. I have no idea why the pool at Queenstown is so extra.)

I swam my usual of 50 laps. Managed to complete it within 62 minutes this time. Oh mann, I've really slowed down from my previous 56 minutes.
One year of not swimming does things to you.

When I was leaving the swimming complex, the life guard engaged himself into a conversation with me. He told me that my strokes were good. Even better than his.
That totally got my mind off some stuff. (:

I even was asked to join the underwater hockey team? WOW.

I do have to agree I'm talented in certain aspects in my life, but why are the two arenas of expertise so extreme? Performing arts versus Swimming?
Whoops. Sorry. BHB.


All right, back to my POINT.

Shit happens. And so does good stuff.
The extremes of life.

I remember last November I was feeling so good. So happy, and nothing wrong could go on in my life.
First, I managed to get out of STC.
Second, I was playing main role in last year's Christmas play.
Third, I was going to get confirmed and I was pretty excited about it.

Comparing that situation to the situation this November, the difference is quite drastic.
I'm not going to type it out here. But this pretty much sums up what I'm feeling right now.

"God determines who walks into your life. I decide who stays and who goes."

You know. I would love to choose to let you stay. But then again. I daren't say it.
I think I'm too much of a spoilt brat. Getting everything I want.
This time, I shall not want.
I shall realise the importance of your existence, and I shall need.


You dont understand how NEAR you are. But your heart and mine will never form a bond.


This is a good time to remind myself of my motto: Patience is a virtue.
How true.
After nearly 20mts of waiting, I got you hooked emotionally, and I said "wait". You didn't, you left.
Well, I'm glad you did. All I need you to do is understand that whatever I did was because I loved you. Never to hurt you.


EEE. I sound like an EMO WRECK.
SORRY SORRY!
hehehehe. *laughs like a retard*

Oh yeah. Swimming in the rain. It's great. But it got Nat sick luh! How stupid can that get.
Nat Fern being sick is the last thing anyone should have on their list.



I've got a fever!
I'm HOT!
And I can't be stopped!