Results are out.

Yoz. Results are out man.
You can post your comments on my tagboard (cbox).

Crescent and SJI wins.

Crescent wins IJTP by 63 votes.
SJI wins ACSI by 49 votes.

Personally, I voted for Catholic High and STC.
Haha.

Hah, I should have said, vote only ONCE.
Mistake.
But this just shows something, that Crescent and SJI has very loyal students.

Congrats.
Polls will go off NOW.

A Picture For Ian

Oh yes. This is for you Ian, I promised you this photo.




GOODBYE! (:

Olympus LI40B @ $25!

Finally got my Olympus battery after two weeks of living without a camera.
It was two weeks of no cam whoring. TOTAL TORTURE.
Trust me, I'm addicted to the camera.

Bargained with the shopkeeper, and got my battery for $25 bucks!
HOW CHEAP IS THAT! Haha, the LI30B cost $25 bucks. The Olympus LI40B is more than that... $35. And I GOT IT FOR $25! WHEE.
If anyone needs to go to SimLim and bargain, CALL NAT FERN ALONG!
(: I'm good. Seriously.

GOOD. I can take pictures during my camp!!


Watched Happy Feet today.
Great. Funny.


Thanks Ian.
YOU ROCK!


Facilitating a spiritual camp means...
Staying up and socialising with your co-fac, other facils.
Staying up and eating chips or whatever not you have brought from home.
Making new friends.
Knowing that I'll make a change in my member's lives, be it a small action like giving them tissue or even a hug when they are down.
Knowing that my members will definitely not forget this experience.

SO MANY THINGS. I'm going to enjoy this.
I have to break my members out of this "i-must-attend-confirmation-camp-if-not-i-cannot-be-confirmed" mentality.
I can do it! JIAYOU!

I'm in-charge of group "Generosity". This so reminds me of KIDS CAMP. Because the groups are named after the fruits of the Holy Spirit.
Co-Facil is Gregory Lim. Haha, seriously, I've never met him before. Time for new friends.

I won't say don't miss me. Because I know you will.
See you guys! Will be back on the 2nd!

I'm on the road to finding myself.

I WANT TO MAKE A CHANGE

Tomorrow will be my last day working @ the Singapore Science Centre. Please do drop by! It's $6 per entry and you can learn about SO MANY THINGS!
Science-related of course.


I just saw the programme for St. Joseph's Confi Camp.
It looks OMG, SO TEMPTING.
It reminds me a lot of my YISS experience.
YISS is Youth In the Spirit Seminar by the way, in case any one doesn't know. (:
THE PERFECT CAMP.

I think that every camp is basically the same, it's always the experience that makes it different.
The people around you, the stuff that happens, your facils.
Thinking about that..

I hope I do make a difference. I want to touch lives. I want to change people. I want to change someone dead in their faith, to a person who is alive in God, and allows God to be alive in them.
This will be my goal. The truth of God's love will soon be known to all. I shall not let the devil tempt me, I shall not allow myself to fall into sin.
I will try my best to stay away from evil, and any thing that will harm myself and my relationship with God. Because, I love him. And NO ONE can change that. Because life within me, is controlled by him. Whether I live or die tomorrow, it's all in His hands, and I trust Him, no matter what may happen, I want people to know that His love is the truest love any one on this earth can find. Whether or not I'll be here in the near future, I would have at least changed one person...
Myself. I have allowed God to enter my heart. Enter my soul, my entire being. And just that alone... My temper is better. Profanities have cut down, and all the scheming thoughts of mine have vanished. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart.


I pray...
That I make a good leader. That I will walk that journey with them.
And that no matter what happens... God will be with all of us.



I was filled with power. Power to type all that.
(:
I WANT TO MAKE A CHANGE. For the better....

MEETINGS. MEETINGS. MORE MEETINGS!

I really shouldn't have said 'yes' to the Antioch Camp. I'm kind of regretting taking up responsibility for it. But oh well, what's done's done. I can't undo it.
I ALWAYS LAND MYSELF IN THESE SITUATIONS. Regret Regret.


Only because I had work today, I missed two of my BELOVED meetings.
1. CURIA.
2. St. Joseph's Prayer Prep.


OH OH.
Anyway. At Science Centre, when I offered this Indian guy a bookmark, he dropped it. And his other Indian couterpart went, 'alfkdjfaeiofjslf;' in a really high pitched OMG GIRLY voice. Haha. Who would do that please?
It was equilavent to a bimbo screaming in a BLEAHED Bimbotic tone.


Haha, I should have recorded it.
INDIANS going "alfkdfjaeiofjslf;" HAH!

A Good Citizen!

EEyer.

That previous post was just dry. I felt like talking about sin anyway.


More camps coming up!
Eileen just asked me to help out for Antioch Camp. Well well. 7,8,9th.
Gotta leave early on the 9th to celebrate my wedding anniversary. (:
<33 size="2">Reason for edit: I'm leaving on the 29th, not the 30th.

I'll go on a God-high soon again. Thank you Lord for providing opportunities to fine tune my facilitating skills. I'm sure many will learn from my facilitating. Worked again today. Gonna work again in a few hours time. Hope I can wake up for mass. (:

Ate at macs for dinner. Happy meal! I ordered a 4 piece mcnugget happy meal, with nespray yoghurt, and iced milo... While the cashier serving me went away for a while to look for a toy to give me, this old aunty from the other counter came over to serve me, and guess what? She wanted to charge me $4 instead of the supposedly $4.50 and she gave me an extra packet of small fries.
I was so shocked mann. AT FIRST. I wanted so badly to just run away with it.
But then I realise it'll do me no good. It'll add to my calorie count for the day, AND I would be charged for lying. MISS FERN here was being nice, I returned whatever was supposed to be returned, and I corrected the amount supposed to be paid.

I felt like a good citizen today!

The 7 Deadly Sins

Abortion. Homosexuality. Euthanasia. Hate. Unforgiveness. Sacrilege. Sloth. Envy/Jealousy. Greed/Avarice. Lust. Gluttony. Pride. Wrath.

AHHH.
Saveme.

Just a little info on the seven deadly sins. From wikipedia.org
They're called Capital Sins as well.

Sin : Punishment in Hell
Pride: Broken on the Wheel.
Env: Placed in freezing water.
Wrath: Dismembered Alive.
Sloth: Thrown in Snake Pits.
Greed: Put in pots of boiling oil.
Gluttony: Forced to eat rats, toads, and snakes.
Lust: Smothered in Fire and Brimstone.

Associations with colours/animals.
Pride: violet and horse
Envy: green and snake
Wrath: red and bear
Sloth: light blue and goat
Greed: yellow and frog
Gluttony: orange and pig
Lust: blue and cow

Associations with Demons
Lucifer: Pride
Mammon: Greed
Asmodeus: Lust
Leviathan: Envy
Beelzebub: Gluttony
Satan: Wrath
Belphegor: Sloth


They're just associations. Why do we come to know about these 7 deadly sins then? Thanks to info-provider.

a. so that they would not commit these sins without realising how serious they were,
b. so that they would be able to confess any such sins and gain absolution.


IT'S

Pride VS Humility
Greed/Avarice VS Generosity
Envy VS Love
Anger/Wrath VS Kindness
Lust VS Self-Control
Gluttony VS Temperance (Self-restraint)
Sloth VS Zeal (Dilligence)

It's your choice. Make it today.

When's Nathalie's Confirmation?

Hello World.

Just in case you want to know when I'm getting confirmed? (I keep getting that question a lot..)

I WAS confirmed last year, year 2005 4th December.

WHY SO EARLY?? many ask.. Well, personally, I don't know. I guess it's just the way the church runs things.
We getting confirmed early = bad. Only because the youth don't understand the meaning of fellowship, and they are deterred from joining a youth group.

[edit]
Most of our officers have reached the age limit, they are going to step down soon after 3 years of officer-ship.


Aging church = bad. Growing church = good.
We are a growing aging church. Does it make it GOOD-BAD? Hmm.
[/edit]
Edited at 9.14a.m. on 24/11/06
Reason for edit: I sounded too emo/bitchy/idiotic. Whatever you call it.

KK. Off to sleep now. Attend morning mass or something tomorrow before I head down for work.

I don't know how to tell you I love you.

Super HIGH Class Low Class Choir.

OHMYGOODNESS.

I must explain how SMART Lumen Christi Chorus (LCC) is.

Timothy who just got his results today, acheived a score of 253. He's going to SJI.
Nicholas his elder brother who is studying in Raffles Institution currently achieved a score of 264 two years ago. (That SHOULD be his score)

My BELOVED brother, Keith Fern, who sat for his PSLE last year acheived a score of 246. He's in SJI.
James sat for his PSLE last year acheived a score of 2548 (that makes my choir all the more smarter?). He's currently in SJI. Class 101. SMARTASS.
Amelia who also sat for her PSLE last year got a score of 243.

John, James' elder brother, is currently studying in SJI, and he acheieved a score of 245 for PSLE two years ago. He's smart, going to class 333 next year.


OMG.
And me Nathalie FERN?? I got the lowest among them all.
A stupid 236.

Bleah. Oh well. Let's see for Os.

We are indeed a HIGH Class Low Class Choir! (:

Retail Therapy!

Right,.... so I DIDN'T GET A DRESS.
But I got a few other things.
It was complete budget shopping!

I got a tube+belt from Red2 @ $29
2 Skirts and 1 bag at Ice Lemon Tee @ $21.90
2 Nail polishes and 1 Nail polish remover from missha @ $6

I wanted that dress so badly.
Anw.

I LOVE MY TUBE! (: (: (:

Sanitary Pad Adverts?

Sanitary Pad AdvertS?

I keep walking around Singapore, and everywhere I go I keep seeing advertisements to promote sanitary pads.
LIKE ZOMG. The way they promote is disgusting. I saw one new advert, and it's just horrible.

To replace the blood when females mensturate, the advertisers normally use some blue translucent liquid.

Guess what I saw in one particular advert?
GREEN PRECIPITATE LIKE LIQUID.
LIKE ZoMG>


Okay. Enough of freaky-ness for one day.



Anw. Met sam, mel loh and marcus ytd at tp foodcourt.
Wahaha. It was a rather unexpected thing! Whoohoo.
Anwanw. I got this hilarious picture of Melvin. I swear he can live up to Britney Peers.
Lipstick and all.

Off to buy a dress now! Hopefully the shopping will turn out fruitful!


I was registered since 25 Oct 1998.
Haha. SO cute. Primary One (:


Oh yes. Take note. Birthday = 12 Dec.

Mel & I = Similarities?

Surprisingly, I had a very good & rather fruitful conversation with Gossip Central Mel Loh this early morning. Chatted till about 1.20am.
I already see the Holy Spirit working through him. Confirmed indeed.

Alrights. I never knew he and I had so many interests in common, even ideologies.
1. Bak Chor Mee!
2. Kiddies!
3. Husband to do housework, wife to earn $.

Wow. I mean, there are very few supporters regarding point number 3.


So, I woke up early (before 12noon) again this morning thanks to Marcus. BLEAH.
Haha, regarding choir. Come to think of it, I don't really mind, I LOVE MY Lumen Christi Chorus.

Talking about choirs. I've yet to memorise my scores for SYF. SHIT. It's in 5 months time, I need to interpret the music, I need to tune up, I need to stop eating chilli.


My nails are currently dark purple. (:



Oh yes. I suddenly think that my teeth are really white! (:
And I look QUITE good in pictures. WHOOHOO.
Sorry sorry. My ego will now deflate.
Off to church to go study now.


HOPEFULLY I can get my bak chor mee bahhh.
Bak chor mee gan bu yao la jiao! (:

Random (VI)

Instructions: name 20 people you can think of at the top of your head.
dont read the questions below before you write and tag 5 people to do the survey.

1) NATHALIE FERNANDEZ
2) Elvie
3) SamB.
4) Marcus Tan
5) Eugene Lee
6) Larris Liew
7) Ian Chai
8) Gabriel Woon
9) Melvin Loh
10) Antaeus Lim
11) Lydia
12) Amelia Monteiro
13) Hansel Chew
14) Edwin T
15) Daohui
16) Shandy Wong
17) Shireen
18) Chloe anne
19) Amirah
20) Priscilla Wong

How did you meet 14?
(Edwin T) It started out with this "I love _ _ _ sms" and he found out my identity.

What do you do if you never ever meet 1?
(NATHALIE FERNANDEZ) Oh man, my life would be so depressing.

What would you do if 20 and 9 dated?
(Priscilla and Melvin Loh). Can also! They both LOVE food.

Did you ever like 19?
(Amirah) Haha. Yes, and I still like her. No lesbos ah. Neighbours for life.

Would 6 and 1 make a good couple?
(Larris and NATHALIE FERNANDEZ) Haha. Why not. ROCKERS ROCK. ;)

Describe 3.
(SamB) My one and only PL. The hot, smart, fun and oh so loving PL.

Do you think 8 is attractive?
(Gabriel) His voice is super attractive!

Say smt abt 7.
(Ian) Super smart. Super caring. Super!

Do you know any of 12's family members?
(Amelia Monteiro) How about I know her entire family.

What's 18's favourite?
(Chloe) Her guitar, boys, SJI.

What would you do if 11 confesses that he/she likes you?
(Lydia) All right. Good choice if you picked me!

What language does 15 speak?
(Daohui) Chinese to her parents, English to others.

Who is 9 going out with?
(Melvin Loh) Haha. I don't think I know. But I know he likes a girl by the name of C____.

How old is 16 now?
(Shandy)15.

When was the last time you talked to 13?
(Hansel) Just yesterday. Asked him what his confirmation name was going to be.

Who's 2's favourite band/singer?
(Elvie) The veronicas.

Would you date 4?
(Marcus Tan) Haha, I don't mind.

Would you date 7?
(Ian Chai) Haha, another one? Personally, I don't know. But, if it happens I dont mind either.

Is 15 single?
(Daohui) She's bent on being single!

What's 10's last name?
(Antaeus) Lim.

Would you ever be in a serious relationship with 14?
(Edwin Tan) Lol. Haha. HMMM. He's too serious for a serious relationship. 'Counter-attack'.

What school does 3 go to?
(SamB.) IJTP

Tag 5 people to do this survey.
1. Marcus
2. SamB
3. Hansel
[edit]4. Melvin
5. Edwin Tan

Oh yes, Number 5 from the top ain't used. So I'm gonna create my OWN question.

What is one question you've been dying to ask 5.
(Eugene Lee) What is the one thing that I must do to make you treat me like an equal and unmarginalised? I've been majorly hurt by many of your racist comments.
[/edit]

Reason for edit: I wanted two more people to do this. And Eugene wasn't added into any of the questions, so smartass here came up with a question.

Risen Christ Confirmation Pictures

Sam - JUST Married.
Amanda and I - The Black Supporters.

(:

PLs. Eugene & Marcus. Wahaha. Eugene ah! Look what look, I know PLs are hot. But look at the cam for a moment??

The tree is <3

Just how COUPLE-Y do we look? One fun day for cam-whoring!

Ahh. Where's amanda. She left.

================================

Basically, everyone looked good yesterday, except for this lian girl we (Marcus and I) saw. Haha. Omg, I feel like an anti-lian now!

I took all the pictures from PL's blog, so you might see the same pictures over and over again. BUT YA. She was SO HOT yesterday!

Ohyes, a wedding pose as well. It's in Eugene's phone.

Haha. JOIN THE PLFC!
PL Fan club! WHOO. Two members and calling for recruits!



Oh yes, a treat for all car fanatics! Click here.

Risen Christ Confirmation

Had work yesterday till about 5, my dad came on his bike to pick my uniform up for me. PHEW. If not I would have work POLKA DOTS to church. OMT.

I thought I looked like a star. WHOO. Star. LOL. Not with the polka dots of course, I still love those dots man. What am I talking about??

I was so bent on taking a train all the way down to Toa Payoh from Jurong East, but I saw that it took super long LIKE 46 MINS! OMG. And it was already 5.20pm when I looked at station clock. How was I supposed to get to Toa Payoh in time mann. Mass would definitely start promptly at 6pm. BLEAH.
Smartass me decided to get out of Jurong first so that I could go to a more ulu-ated place to catch a cab. It worked, I headed down to Bukit Batok via MRT and I got a cab in less than a minute. (: (: (:

Oh yes, the cab driver was being an idiot. He asked me where I was headed to, and before I could even say 'Toa Payoh Central, Risen Christ Church', he went, "Are you a Singaporean?"
OH MANN, TWO days in a row.
The previous day (Sat), it was this Korean Family sitting behind me in the Beach Tram at Sentosa. They tapped my shoulder and asked, "Where are you from?" I said Singapore, and they got a big shock of their life.
Like ZOMG. How foreign do I look?
Have I been doomed for life to be marginalised by people like EUGENE Lee and called FOREIGN by the public.

Oh yes, that reminds me. While in Sentosa (Sat), some girl, most probably sec one or two, came up to me and talked really loudly, it nearly seemed as though she was shouting at me luh. She said, "Eh! (points at me) Don't you have some moment blog? Hmm. The one with the green background? I READ LEH!"
Like zomg. Who the f is she. I mean, it's all right if you read my blog. Just dont disturb me mann.
I felt like a STAR, however, I felt like a star with irritating fans.
(I told you I felt like a star in the beginning of the post.)

Not too bad a feeling though =P.


Anyway, during my lunch break (Sun), I went around Science Centre and I played with the machine that allows you to see how you ROUGHLY look like when you become an adult or even a senior citizen. Mann, I look CHAOTA (black), and distorted.
My ever youthful face will be gone soooon.
MY PRETTY PRETTY FACE.


Hmm, anyway, during the mass, Jervis Kang, who sat beside me, was being a total idiot mann. He just kept disturbing me. So I didn't really pay attention to the sermon, however I got the gist of it.
Marcus who sat on my other side was being a better person. Although still suan-ning aaron seah regarding height issues.
Oh yes, somehow during mass I was talked into taking off my 3-inch heels, which made me feel taller, just to compare heights with Jervis. Total time waster. But oh well, I made use of that chance to stand beside Aaron. WOWIE, the effect was damn cool, he looked like he was standing wayyy behind me, in actual fact, he was only standing next to me (in case no one got what that meant, I'm just saying he's vertically challenged).


Melvin treated us to Pastamania. Thanks (:
And we headed down to Swensens where PL treated us to dessert. OMG. Dessert was sweet. Haha, PL looked as though she had a hard time finishing her salad. Haha. SHe looked so damn hot yesterday man! (:(:


I'm into Josh Groban and Eros Ramazzotti.
Weird, nice taste (:


HAPPY BIRTHDAY LARRIS!
Love you (:
You know I do. Wahah.

Vacation Job.

Whoo. Work at Sentosa was super SLACK! WHEES.
And yay. I just got $70 like that. (I should get more work like that)
Citigroups is RICH!
See, Citibank had a community day today. It was basically free for the public.

Bought my sunnies for $28. Aww mann. So that leaves me with $42.
I ate dinner today, and it cost me about $10 bucks. BLEAH.


There were HOT guys at palawan beach, I talked to one of them!
Oh my god. Can just faint on the spot.


Oh yes. So my job scope for the day was to ensure that the people signed the indemnity form for the 'Rock Climbing' section.
Sat in the shelter and did nothing much other than interact with the kids. I think I'm super good at that.
I get to interact with more kids tomorrow! I hope smart, non-spoilt brat kids come into contact with my eyes.


OH YES. Did I mention there was this idiotic 7 year old girl I came into contact with today.
She was so tmd 'complain-er'.
All she could do was to complain about the supposedly long queue which consisted of 20 people only. She should have seen the longest queue. It went up to 50 people.
She also said,
"Haiyer, the wall so short, I've climbed higher walls! And plus, they climb so slow, they should let me go first, I think I climb so much faster than them."
HOW IDIOTIC IS THAT.
It's a free go for you all right! FREE. FOC! No cash payment required.
IDIOT. She was simply tmd-fucked up for her age.


Worked with Dao, and she was a lot more hardworking than I was. SORRY! I kept skiving!! At least I kept the crowd entertained!

Oh yes, we were talking about how the protestant church and the Catholic church are so different. They actually have their eucharist and wine INDIVIDUALLY packed. LIKE ZOMG.
RICH MAH. They contribute 10% of their income. Can't say anything.
We?? We donate as if we cannot make ends meet.
Oh yes, and I was told to study the bible somehow. BLEAH. I don't think it's very COMMON for a Catholic to STUDY a bible ehh.

I was so touched when a kid came up to me and gave me an ice-cream. It was this Walls Jelly Ice-cream. Shared it with Dao. I LOVE IT!
Thanks kiddo.
Apparently, he was the kid who bullied me real bad before that.



Oh yes. I lost my camera battery as well. HOW STUPID CAN NAT GET! Idiot. It dropped out only because my pouch is screwed up. Lost one side of the string. Thanks Eug.


Thanks to Dao, Shandy and Andre for making my day a little ((:


Anw. Gotta sleep now. FEEL SO FREAKING FULL THOUGH.
Got work tomorrow. No breakfast, no lunch. I'm just lazy to spend money.
WHEE. Science centre here I come! I want to visit the human body exhibit again!



Oh yes. I need to say this.
EDWIN TAN! KUDOS! Because finally I've found someone who thinks the same way as me regarding confirmation.

First Day of Attachment.

Today was my first day of work attachment at the Singapore Science Centre.
It was slack for the first shift only because we started 20 minutes later than we should have.

There were SO MANY KIDS!
We were in charge of some puzzles. And we were supposed to explain to the kids how they were to go about these puzzles/games.
The children just started crowding around my station. I wanted to die of suffocation.

Oh yes, and we were giving out these bookmarks for free initially. But later on we decided to give the bookmarks to them only if they could solve one puzzle.

There was this kid who was only 12 years old. I swear he's one smart ass mann.
He can solve one puzzle within ONE MINUTE. And it took another smart ass like me slightly more than a minute. Like tmd man.
He's from St Anthony's Primary School. He's a swimmer. He's like some higher Chinese dude. And he started ranting on about the 'su yu' that he memorised. I swear I couldn't even recognise some of them.
How STUpID Nat felt.
Oh yes, to make things worse, he's a confirmed student in Dunman High. Wahlao eh. Damn ke siao. Over-achiever.


So, basically, I just stood there for 5 hours wrecking my brains on trying to find out the solution of MOST of the BEGINNER puzzles.
Had $15 Macs voucher!
ANYBODY can accompany me to macs sometime soon? MY TREAT!

Had porridge for lunch. Damn nice mann. BEST PORRIDGE I had in my entire life. I sound as though I've only eaten porridge only once. Ahh. But century egg's just YUMM..


Oh yes. I will be heading down to Sentosa in a few hours time.
And I don't really have a white shirt. Cuz all my shirts are coloured! Haha. I lead a colourful life.
(: (: (:
Ian CHAI! Your shirt is somewhere in Tampines ah.
And you just have to be gone today.


Anyway. I headed down to bugis. And I waited ONE ENTIRE HOUR for Ian. Haha. I think he's always late luh. Back to my point.. I went to the first floor of Bugis Junction, around the fountain area, and there was this a capella performace. OMG. The guys were all jazz singers.
SO NICE!
They are called "m-pact".
Six singers. Six different tones. ONE VOICE.

Birthday Presents!

HEHE.
Someone asked me a few days ago what I wanted for my birthday present!
Haha, I actually NEVER THOUGHT about it.

Haha. But here's a list of TWO THINGS I came up with.
1) Sunglasses. PINK WOULD DO GREAT!
2) Earrings!

Haha, they are quite affordable I must say.

But besides that. I actually want people to wish me!
Forget about the presents lah. I can go get them myself.
I want your hugs.

Know the best thing about sincere hugs?
You don't know if you're receiving them or giving them.


Oh, btw. I uploaded songs onto my blog. Just in case NO ONE noticed. (:
More of praise and worship stuff and ANCIENT music (Muse & Guns N' Roses?? WHOO <33).
Lols.

Will be going to work in a few hours time, and FEVER-ISH Nat refuses to sleep.
I intend to play with most of the science exhibits at Science Centre.
Hopefully, I can be the person who sits in the electric chair and survives!
DO YOU REMEMBER THAT EXHIBIT? The one at the world of energy! DO YOU DO YOU?

Will be working at Sentosa, Palawan Beach from 12nn-8pm on Saturday (namely tmr).
I need to get a white top and some surfer shorts mann. Haha. Maybe I'll just end up with FBTs again. They match almost any casual top.
Hopefully I can go suntanning during my break. If there's even a break!
Get that nice bikini line that I've been wanting for so damn long.
Whoops. That wasn't really necessary. PAISEH!

2 St. Deirdre of 2005 and 2006.

I was looking around friendster and I saw this year's 2 St. Deirdre class picture.
I got reminded of my own class picture last year. 2D.
I had great memories over there.
Sweet, not so sweet.
They were memorable.

These two classes are so similar.
Both classes have the quiet and the not so quiet ones.
Both have the nerdy, and the not so nerdy (pai kia) ones.
Both are 2 St Deirdre! (:

Reflection, Swimming, Sick

I thought over some advice a good friend of mine gave me a few days back.
Never would have thought that this friend of mine went through shit so similar to mine.

While thinking over the words this friend of mine said to me over a phonecall, I decided to go for a swim.

Upon reaching Queenstown Swimming Complex.. I realised there was NO ONE using the three pools at all!
YAY! All 9 lanes to myself! (Actually, there is only a standard 8 lanes for an olympic sized swimming pool. I have no idea why the pool at Queenstown is so extra.)

I swam my usual of 50 laps. Managed to complete it within 62 minutes this time. Oh mann, I've really slowed down from my previous 56 minutes.
One year of not swimming does things to you.

When I was leaving the swimming complex, the life guard engaged himself into a conversation with me. He told me that my strokes were good. Even better than his.
That totally got my mind off some stuff. (:

I even was asked to join the underwater hockey team? WOW.

I do have to agree I'm talented in certain aspects in my life, but why are the two arenas of expertise so extreme? Performing arts versus Swimming?
Whoops. Sorry. BHB.


All right, back to my POINT.

Shit happens. And so does good stuff.
The extremes of life.

I remember last November I was feeling so good. So happy, and nothing wrong could go on in my life.
First, I managed to get out of STC.
Second, I was playing main role in last year's Christmas play.
Third, I was going to get confirmed and I was pretty excited about it.

Comparing that situation to the situation this November, the difference is quite drastic.
I'm not going to type it out here. But this pretty much sums up what I'm feeling right now.

"God determines who walks into your life. I decide who stays and who goes."

You know. I would love to choose to let you stay. But then again. I daren't say it.
I think I'm too much of a spoilt brat. Getting everything I want.
This time, I shall not want.
I shall realise the importance of your existence, and I shall need.


You dont understand how NEAR you are. But your heart and mine will never form a bond.


This is a good time to remind myself of my motto: Patience is a virtue.
How true.
After nearly 20mts of waiting, I got you hooked emotionally, and I said "wait". You didn't, you left.
Well, I'm glad you did. All I need you to do is understand that whatever I did was because I loved you. Never to hurt you.


EEE. I sound like an EMO WRECK.
SORRY SORRY!
hehehehe. *laughs like a retard*

Oh yeah. Swimming in the rain. It's great. But it got Nat sick luh! How stupid can that get.
Nat Fern being sick is the last thing anyone should have on their list.



I've got a fever!
I'm HOT!
And I can't be stopped!

Help innocent victims of online child pornography.

You guys should know how against pornography I already am.

www.lightamillioncandles.com

Light a virtual candle for the innocent victims of online child pornography.


No strings attached. You don't even need to submit your details.

Day out with Elvie.

Accompanied Elvie to get her hair cut.
The lady cut it so short her pony tail looks a little bimbotic. Wahaha.

Anyway, we headed down to the New Cathay later at around 7.30 to see the choir from Risen Christ sing.

Wow, not bad.

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Reason for edit: Scandalous pictures were being viewed.

Amplify Fridays.

Come down to Amplify Fridays this week!
We invite YOU, yes you, to this week's session entitled "What You See Is What You Get". Our coordinator Leonard Koh will be speaking about how importance of our sight and how it determines the direction of our lives.
___________

He'll be teaching from Luke 11:33-36 :

33 "No one after lighting a lamp puts it in a cellar or under a bushel, but on a stand, that those who enter may see the light. 34 Your eye is the lamp of your body; when your eye is sound, your whole body is full of light; but when it is not sound, your body is full of darkness. 35 Therefore be careful lest the light in you be darkness. 36 If then your whole body is full of light, having no part dark, it will be wholly bright, as when a lamp with its rays gives you light."

___________

What we look at often determines the direction of our lives.

Get a new perspective on perspectives and fresh insights on sight this week at Amplify Fridays as we take a revealing look at what Jesus teaches us about using our eyes.

Starting with lively praise and intimate worship, the evening will cap off with great food and fellowship. So if you are in the dark as to where to be this Friday, the answer is right before your very eyes.

Amplify Fridays.

See you there.

1945 hrs. Catholic Spirituality Centre, 1261 Upper Serangoon Road.

7% G.S.T.? SCREAMMM!

I woke up this afternoon exactly at 12 noon. Only to find that the papers were on my bed...

And I wanted to scream!!

A picture speaks a thousand words eh?

HOW CAN A SHOPPING ADDICT LIKE ME ever recover from this????
OH NO.


Ok, when I saw PM Lee's explanation, I thought it was quite reasonable la.

HOWEVER!
I still want my 3% G.S.T.! I want it back!


Had work attachment briefing today. FREEZE TO DEATH AH.


I was looking through Eugene's Chennai pictures, and since I own the pictures! I have every single right to post it up here! HMMM.

Oh yes. This is CHAO FUNNY!


Aww. Sleeping.

See that WATCH ON HIS HAND??
Heard from Edwin Tan it's a REAL ROLEX.
RICH! He wore it to Chennai, where pickpockets are commonly found.
I salute him.

Such A Bad Daughter

OH MAN.
I'm such a bad daughter.

I woke up in the morning, and my mom wanted to give me my advanced birthday present.

I SWEAR IT WAS SUPER NICE!
Diamond earrings and pendant with a silver chain!

SO NICE.
OMGOMGOMG.

Ya. I did the wrong thing and I went "How much did you pay for it?"

She said "$200."

I WENT CRAZY.
LIKE OMG OMG OMG SO EX.

That was my initial reaction. And I started saying "Mummy! You shouldn't have spent this money. You know money now how difficult to earn. Next time just buy the essentials lah."

And after a long silence she went, "Because I love you, that's why I'm willing to spend this money."


I wanted to cry.
I shouldn't have said those words to her. ):


OMG.

NOHARI WINDOW!

HELLO WORLD!


Do my Nohari Window!
YES YES. I'm overdramatic! Put that down as one of your choices! (:





Haha, the day camp I ran with my 23 other student leaders just now was simply GREAT.
I'm glad all my group members were girls. No noisy boys. (:

Before we broke camp, the kids went, "hey Nathalie, can you come back to our school?"
Me, "I'm sorry, I don't know if I can, I'm taking my O levels next year, the school might not send me again."

Ahh, I felt SO SAD! ):
Although I knew them for only 8 hours. It was just pure innocence.
Maybe a little of corruptibililty.
NOTE the word LITTLE!

1. No LOW belts.
2. Everyone was wearing NAMETAGS.
3. No LOW socks.

Ah, the perfect IJ example.
Oh well, Primary school what.

Not what I see. But what I believe in.

I was just washing the dishes after breakfast.
And then this thought of faith came to me.



Faith isn't what you see, but what you believe in.



Yes, I believe in you Lord. (:



Off to CHIJ Our Lady of Good Counsel now.
To run a Primary School Leadership Day Camp.
Kids. What I love.

Finished Goong!

I've finally watched all 24 episodes of GOONG.

I cried la. OMG.
Shin and Chaegyung are SO CUTE together.
SO PERFECT.
(:



I'm so in love.


How would I describe the state of my heart?
The sort of feeling that makes you go "Ahhhh."
The sort of feeling that makes you feel like you're in heaven.


Bet Nat would get herself hurt again.
Committing the same crimes over and over again.

Blessed Sacrament is HOT.

BLESSED SACRAMENT IS HOT!

Haha. I've started to appreciate my own parish.

I TURNED AROUND.

I saw a SUPER HOT HOT HOT GUY.
AHH. -screams!
I swear my heart was pounding against my chest so hard. I felt breathless.
I'm not exaggerating.
SO HOT.


Haha. YAYNESS.

My REAL Vocation?

I just realised my fault.


Many people mistake their work for their vocation.
Our real vocation is the love of Jesus.



IT HIT ME AGAIN.

The Greatest Poverty.

"The most terrible poverty is lonliness and the feeling of being unloved."
"There is more hunger in the world for love and appreciation than for bread."

Mother Teresa said this. Even Josh Groban sings a similar message in his Album Awake, "You are Loved".

Don't give up
Because you want to burn bright
If darkness blinds you
I, I will shine to guide you
Everybody wants to be understood
Well I can hear you
Everybody wants to be loved


Well, what exactly is poverty?
Miss Chia said this in Geog class almost thrice.
"It is living on less than US$1 a day."

I started counting, and I thought I could do that.
But we have to consider electricity, water, transportation. We use all these as though they are free.

I need to start to be more conscious of what I use - so carelessly.

Another type of poverty pointed out by Mother Teresa.
ABORTION.
Hey friend. Don't do it.
"It is a poverty to decide that a child must die so that you may live as you wish."
Selfish eh?


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Got my report book today. Results are a lot better than I expected.
I owned my brother in almost everything.
But how to compare right? Different schools.
SMSS vs SJI.
16 vs 22 for L1R5. (:
Sec 3 vs Sec 1.

All rights. 16 ain't the best.
But considering that I lost myself somewhere in April. And I slacked from then on.
I didn't study much. I only study from 12mn to 2am.
2 hours a day. 4 days a week. For 2 weeks.
16 hours for the entire FINAL YEAR examination.


Remarks: "Nathalie has a cheerful and positive personality who is well-liked by her peers and teachers. She has worked hard and acheived good results. Keep up the good work!"

My 16 hours of study have paid off, and deceived my Form Teacher.
Conduct: Excellent.

FINALLY!

AMPLIFY MEETING!

The jouney to pain.

This journey I'm on..
I hope I don't get lost. Nat would be away for quite some time. Not literally.
Emotionally.


"Don't lose yourself". These words has been resounding in my head for the last 14 hours. Ever since I put down the phone.
36 hours awake, and still counting.


I need to start somewhere. I need to accept this shit.
Cowardly?
No.
Afraid of disappointing people?
Yes.


I didn't know it'll be this painful.
Well, this is a start.


And laughter ran all around the house.
Only because I wasn't part of the love.

Correction to polls.

I'm sorry for a change in the poll results.
There was a sudden SURGE in votes for Crescent and St. Joseph's Institution, i.e Cresent had 5000+ votes and SJI had 1000+ votes.
It was obvious spamming, and I have returned it to the original number.


I understand it is a spam blog, however, everything has its limits.
AGREEED? yes.


And I went to Plaza Singapura today.
Met Eug and Jul first. WE STONED there like crazy.

OH YES. Sorry Julian.

You looked VERY VERY VERY BORED.

No talking for nearly an hour.
I SURVIVED.

Ian and Samantha (oh mann. I've not seen her since march!) came A LOT A LOT later.
AND YES.
ATE CARLS' JNR!
(: (: (: (: (:

I'm sooooo happy/satisfied.

Had a crap-out session again.
MESSAGING IS GETTING BORING.
Should talk face to face more.


Haha. Maybe I should have a silent hang out day with someone manns.
Gonna be FUN!

An Unforgiving Society?

Ian said:
because
humans being who they are
like to make God's creation
in the hopes of making an 'unpurposeful' life meaningful
or at least enjoyable
and once the perversion is done
other people fall prey to it
and society isnt forgiving abt it



OMG. so true.





Oh yes. Carls' Junior and Häagen Dazs today for dinner.
S-WEET!
(:
Thanks Elvie. You've stuck by me for the longest time EVER.

Boredom.

I have set myself into a serious study of the great aristocratic art of doing absolutely nothing.

Day in, day out.
I sleep, eat, try to work out, and watch either Japanese anime or Korean dramas.

Right now. I'm trying to complete Chinese homework. Which I deem completely useless.

Oh yeah. St. Joseph's pre-con camp here I come.
I'm gonna help out.

OH GO*. St. Margaret's has fallen far far behind IJTP.

ACS(I) is catching up.

I FEEL LIKE XIAOLIN.

I, Nat, will be using Goong to explain how I'm feeling right now.

Xiaolin, (the girl on the extreme left) feels like crap, after losing Xin (that cute guy on the extreme right).
Xin is married to Cai Jing (second from right).
People keep telling Xiaolin that Xin will eventually return to her...

I guess that's how I'm feeling right now.
Lost in love. Lost in madness.

Dieting = Crap!

WHAT IS UP WITH DIETING?
I'm so fucking pissed.


I have two groups of friends.

I give you a scenario. A girl with the SMARTS but not very hot. And a girl with all the HOTS in the world.

My polls have proven it..
Out of 135 votes. 102 choose HOT.
And only a mere 33 choose smart.

I'm definitely pressurised to lose weight.
However, I'm going to stand up for the rights of women suffering from ANOREXIA NERVOSA. More commonly known as a 'DONT EAT DIET'.

These women/girls are unusually thin, HOWEVER, they still choose to believe they are fat.

I'm going on an anti-dieting campaign. To simply put it. Anti-anorexia campaign.
I shall eat. I shall grow fat. I shall show the world it's all right to be fat.

These women need help. HELP THEM NOW!


SHIT. Does sexual attraction matter the world? BLEAH.
Okay, maybe it does.



THE PUBLICITY OF MY ANTI-DIETING CAMPAIGN BEGINS HERE!

Polls (2) & Schedule for Hols.

What you see is a result page of the polls so far. Just IN CASE you didn't know what I was talking about in my previous post.

Viewers can only see percentages of the total votes so far.
And I just realised I am the only one who can view the exact number.

All I can say is that IJTP and SMSS are realll close.
(:


WAHAH. Talk to me someone. I'm BORED!!
Dead bored.


My voice is gone due to choir camp.
I need to rest. But I can't NOT talk.
Retard.


I'm going to jog a marathon on the 14th. Hopefully he'll be energetic enough to jog with me.


Kinda got my schedule up for the month of Nov and Dec.
5N: PYC Meeting.
6N: Practice for Carolling @ Plaza Sing.
10N: Amplify.
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13N: Pri School Camp.
17N: Work Attachment, Amplify.
19N: Work Attachment.
21N: Practice for Carolling @ Plaza Sing.
24-27N: Work Attachment.
24N: Parish Youth Council Meeting.
25N: Curia (I think I gotta skip it. Work attachment comes first.)
30N-2D: St. Joseph's Confi Camp (Helping out)
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4D: One year Anniversary for Confirmation! Choir Concert "Three".
12D: Yours truly. (: I was brought into the world.
16D: Parish Combined Youth Gathering.
22D: Choir Carolling @ Plaza Sing.
23D: Annual General Reunion for Legion @ St Pats.
24D: Christmas Eve.
25D: Christmas Day.
28-29D: Choir.

That's pretty much it. Not many activities as compared to the last holiday.
Just gotta add my church and Legion in... I'm quite free.
Which is GOOD. I have more time for my Death Note.
SO people. MOVIES! If you wanna watch movies. CALL ME.


Oh S*** I'm so hooked onto ANIME.

Polls (1)

Still leading in the current polls are CHIJ (Toa Payoh) and St Margaret's Secondary School followed by CHIJ St. Theresa's Convent.

IJTP is leading by a very clear margin I must say.

Recently, there has been a sudden surge in votes for Methodist Girls' School and Tanjong Katong Girls' School. And soon, they MIGHT just over take the top three spots.

Competition is very intense I must say.
So far, only Nanyang Girls' School and Paya Lebar Methodist Girls' School have not received any votes.
(P.S. I'm excluding Edwin Tan's votes for EVERY SINGLE school. He is a complete UNRELIABLE source.)


As for the Boys' Schools...
St. Joseph's Institution is leading with majority of the votes. Followed by Anglo-Chinese School (Independent).

The fight between St. Joseph's Institution and Anglo-Chinese School (Independent) is a very mild one. This margin is twice as clear as the one compared to the competition between CHIJ (Toa Payoh) and St. Margaret's Secondary School.

Zero percent of the voters prefer Maris Stella High School, St. Andrew's Secondary School, St. Gabriel's Secondary School, St. Patrick's School and Raffles Institution.

I think the win would be quite obvious. No worries anyone. Polls are up till 30th November. Do remember to vote for your favourite Schools.


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By the way. Just a tiny update on choir camp.

It was fun unexpectedly. Commitment level to choir should be improving. But it's still a fail.
Played Human Table Soccer. You know table soccer? We represented the plastic men.. Cool stuff.

Had choir Idol. Ok, so my group didn't win. But I was funny. (:

HEIGHT DIFFERENCE!

I was taking my brother's height today.
And to my delight, he's exactly the same height as me. Finally, the day I have been waiting for has arrived.

To think that he as a cute small boy when he was younger. I'll most probably upload his photo on sunday. (:

Just to illustrate how short he was just 30 months back...

Sorry for the A grade drawing.

He was ONE HEAD shorter than I was. And he had a lot less hair then. Mom wouldn't allow long and untamed hair..
Now, he's exactly the same height as I am, and he definitely has a lot more hair now.

Just in case you're wondering why I look the same 30 months back compared to now...
I haven't grown in ages!!

All right, I ain't short. I'm quite proud of my height acutally.

Congratulations Keith! You're finally no more a shortie!!

MDIS Gym.

School was out of my schedule today. HURRAY.

I didn't PON. I so didn't PON school.



Headed to the gym at (Management & Development Inistute of Singapore) together with my brother and dad.

While I was entering the MDIS Campus. There were two guards at the entrance, and he stopped my brother and I. Problem is, my dad walked quite a distance ahead of us already.
I said, "sorry, we're his kids" (pointing at my dad).
They went, "Huh?"
I said in a rather irritated tone, "He's our FATHER. You know ba1 ba1 in chinese?".
They looked at each other and turned to me again. "Your dad is a student here?"
I nearly shouted this time, "No, he's a teacher."

Their reactions were HYPER funny. They were like Bananas in Pyjamas. They turned to each other and went.. "OHHHH."

Retarded. This is the second time it's happening to me. WITH THE SAME GUARDS.


Anyway, as it was my first time stepping into that gym. I WENT WHOA so loudly that the guy behind the counter looked at me.
The facilities rocked. And the changing room was SO ATAS (high-class).
As if it were part of a hotel.
Don't really have the pictures becuase my camera is in Chennai now.

I was sitting on the gym ball, and I decided to just bounce on it.

My brother said I looked lik I was humping the gym ball. LIKE ZOMG.

Would I, the innocent Nat I am, ever hump an inanimate object? I do not need REPLACEMENTS. Haha.

Whoops.

Going for 24 hour choir camp tomorrow. Will be back on Saturday 1pm.
I BETTER GO MEMORISE MY SCORES NOW.
If not Nat will never live to blog EVER AGAIN. ): SAD EH?

Oh, btw, I changed my old blog's skin. It's PINK and LIAN-ISH now.
http://nat-f.blogspot.com

P.S. LOOKS LIKE CHIJ (Toa Payoh) IS WINNING THE VOTES FOR FAVOURITE GIRLS' SCHOOL.

Not that I'm against it or anything.. Just vote for your favourite before I crown them favourite Girls' School.

Favourite Boys' School will be up in 30 minutes time.. So look out.

Polls will be up till 30th Nov.

Mission: Blog Like ____.

I have a secret MISSION TO ACCOMPLISH.

TO BLOG LIKE _____.

Like zomg. How could I??

Haha. For starters. I need to be more BHB.

AIDS.

I just realised I have the solution to AIDS.

It is within my hands.
Not too far away.
A few thousand hours of research.
A few thousand more chances of improving (or failures as some people call it).


I really want that project.


I just realised I'm going to work in 16 days time.
So much of a realisation.

LEGION OF MARY.

PPC.
I didn't know what it stood for in the Legion system. DO YOU DO YOU?
I would have thought it was the "Parish Pastoral Council".

It's the Peregrinatio Pro Christo Committee. BIG NAME BIG NAME.

I'm really impressed by the Legion of Mary Official Website.
Although the HTML skills are not the best, the content is FABULOUS.
It's more of an FAQ pit-stop.
Easy access to MOST of the questions of Legion of Mary you might have.

Also, I realised that none of the Concillium Officers are Asians.

Oh yes, they also have this ONLINE HANDBOOK.
I'm guessing it's for the auxillary members.
Heard there's a new edition of the handbook coming out.
I MUST OWN A COPY.


All right, I sound like a hard core fan of the Legion of Mary. I AM I REALLY AM.
-nods. (:


OH YES. It's about time some people take note.
WE DO NOT WORSHIP MARY. Do not point at us Catholics and go, "Mary worshippers."
Not as if I mind, but I do want to make things clear.

Keeping her in our prayers is like having a picture of our parents or grandparents in our home: it reminds us of our love for them and their love for us. Just as we don't worship the pictures of our parents or grandparents, we don't worship Mary.
Rather, praying THROUGH her is a sign that we are thankful to Mary for giving us the greatest Treasure in our lives: Jesus Christ.

The Serenity Prayer

God, give us grace to accept with serenity

the things that cannot be changed,

Courage to change the things

which should be changed,

and the Wisdom to distinguish

the one from the other.

Living one day at a time,

Enjoying one moment at a time,

Accepting hardship as a pathway to peace,

Taking,

as Jesus did,

This sinful world as it is,

Not as I would have it,

Trusting that You will make all things right,

If I surrender to Your will,

So that I may be reasonably happy in this life,

And supremely happy with You forever in the next.

Amen.

Got this from Marion's blog. I think it's the coolest prayer alive.

Of course I still love the Hail Mary.

Oh yes, I should be going to Risen Christ in a while's time. If not, Blessed Sacrament here I come.

Happy ALL SAINTS' DAY.

HAPPY FIRST OF NOV.
AND HAPPY ALL SAINTS' DAY!


Note: Mass is compulsory for all catholics and those who practise the faith, as it is a day of obligation. You are OBLIGED to go as you can infer from the words 'day of obligation'. (thx marcus for helping me in this sentence, like ONE LETTER.)


Looks like I didn't attend mass earlier on.
I need to attend mass. Didn't go for rosary session either.
So far, I've only gone for 8. Compared to my 23 the previous years.
I feel slack-y.


What a great way to spend halloween.
Leadership training.
Sleep.
AND trying to find a remedy for my soul.



CHOIR CAMP ON FRIDAY!
OH F.
I DISLIKE CHOIR MORE THAN ANYTHING.
It's just the way it works.
I need to commit. SYF.
They want a Gold with Honours, I want to be a help more of a hinderance.
6 more months of CCA.
BLEAHH.
I'm sorry choir. I need the drive.




Thank you.
From the bottom of my heart.