Random thoughts to fill my mind.

Random thoughts to fill my mind again.

1. I know teenage relationships are bull crap, but why the hell am I trying so hard to get myself into one?
2. Abortion is downright wrong.
3. I've grown tired of bleach. It doesn't really matter anyway, I'm already at the last episode there is currently.
4. I can't wait for mass later. Maybe because I missed the previous day of obligation mass.
5. I need to talk to someone about MINISTRY.
6. I've been feeling A LOT of ENVY and JEALOUSY lately.
7. FOOD IS HEAVEN. But I'm still afraid. Ballooning up isn't much of a consolation.
8. I need to be in school in 30 minutes time for a crapped up leadership training module.
9. I have been engaging myself in time-wasting activities for the past few days.
10. Family life is complicated. As always, let the adults fight it out between themselves.
11. The picture of Dorian Gray is nice.
12. Church is fun. But the activities are too much, or am I just stupid enough to volunteer. The latter sounds a lot better.
13. I've been dropping hints. To no avail....
14. Changi airport's a great place to study. This weekend will be my date with Changi, anyone interested?
15. I like coloured fonts!

Oh, the IRONY.

Hey fatty, going skinnydipping again?

Yo, what's up? You look down.

OH, I've been so frustrated lately.

AND. I'VE FALLEN MADLY IN LOVE WITH _ _ _.

Desire hitting an all-time high.

Stop Fighting.

Hey mom and dad.

It would help if you guys would stop fighting.

What ever happened to family.

Never existed? Never will.

Dont look back half-way.

Dont look back half-way, go all the way to the end and then look back and see where you've gone wrong.

Okay. Ian, you always make me think.

It hit me LIKE A ROCK.
OUCH.


I thought for quite a bit on the train ride to Changi.


Off goes the SJI and MGS Chennai group.
Have fun, and don't get my camera lost.

Is it just me, or is everyone EMO today.

EVERYONE.

RAWR.

Now marcus. I know how farked up you're feeling. ):

The list of non-emo people today!

[edit]

1. Edwin. (he claims so)

2. Hansel.

3. Samb.

4. Ian.

[/edit]

I can't think of anymore.

Now my dear friend. Why do you have to go ruin your life.

Go engage yourself in activities that will lead you to life-long regret.

I can see nothing more than hatred in your heart.

Keep the child my friend.

Don't kill it.

I'm willing to help you. Just don't do it.

You never know if he/she will be a great person.

Don't let me down my friend.

You know what's done can't be undone. Like I said in the beginning of my post.

Don't look back half-way, go all the way to the end and then look back and see where you've gone wrong.

Evangelise like the Muslims?

Finally, can get the post up.

Wahaha.By the way, I saw this email sent to me by some guy I don't know.
It was talking about the muslim faith.
To think they are evangelising thru email as well.

No offence anyone, I'm just saying that it's a job well done on trying to evangelise, we should learn from them.

LIKE WAHLAO.
Do I look that muslim to you.HMMMHO.

Birthday Bash for October Babies in Amplify!

Birthday Bash for October Babies in Amplify!

Had a blast today. WHOO.

Went to Miss Clarity Cafe. CHEAP AND GOOD.
I think I'm going there for my birthday. Treat a few of my friends as well.



wahaha. trying to hide? YOU CANT HIDE FROM me.


Francis and Antaeus.


Emma.


Antaeus and ELIJAH. haha. BASS and DRUMMS.

NUMBER ONE HILARIOUS PHOTO OF THE DAY!

LOVE YOU ROCKER.

A little God-High and RANDOM-NESS

DRUMS.

Whoo.
I'm going to RE-learn it.
Play it professionally by next year.

And play for amplify!
Elijah's going to teach me.



That desire for God hit an ALL-TIME high today (for this entire month).

I'm still God-high.


And I made a really SLOW realisation today.
I wasted the last two years of my life. Doing something completely worthless.

I thought you were.....

If I thought and you think... WHO CONFIRMS?

Thanks God. For sending that message down to me.


I'm feeling rather random now. So many thoughts racing through my head right now.

1. I haven't gone for rosary session this entire week other than Monday.
2. I don't know if Eugene still wants to borrow my camera, Chennai has many professional pickpockets.
3. I dislike choir. I don't know why I joined it. So much for the love of singing.
4. I just realised that I've been very rude to my mother for the past few days.
5. I also just realised I've been lying much more than usual. ): To get myself outta shit.
6. I need to start studying.
7. I love God.
8. FAT = HAPPY. But it doesn't mean skinny = sad.
9. I LOVE AMPLIFY. And I love the people that keep me going back. Esp Larris. Thanks. From the bottom of my heart.
10. Making friends is great. But I think I'm over doing it. Slow down Nat.
11. I've been eating a lot more these days. With an ankle that hurts, it's difficult to burn.
12. I feel stupid. I need to start reading the papers again.
13. I still love God.
14. I want to re-live my YISS.
15. I feel useless. Fact is, I'm not.
16. I'm still MONEYLESS.
17. I need to start doing something passionately.
18. Ministry work is calling me. I'm still here. WHY. AGE? Guess so.
19. God. I NEED YOU.
20. Melancholy is not what I need right now.
21. SOMEONE. I NEED SOMEONE TO TALK TO.




Time. As everyone knows. Once gone, can never come back.
I think the same goes for words.
Opportunities too.
I think I've let time, words and opportunities slip away too easily.

Just like this hourglass.

Blogthings

Please check back tomorrow for an update (around 1 or 2 am).

Will be at Amplify.


PRAISE GOD.


For the time being.

http://blogthings.com

enjoy the quizzes.

Dance Certificates.

I received two certs today.
And I was nosey enough to look through the class list for the scores for our dance exam.

WHEE.
I together with Weekee as my partner received top scores of a 98.5% for our Mambo Latin Dancesport Elementary Course.

HONOURS PLUS!

(Okay, i'm a LITTLE thick skinned. As usual. =))

Not bad eh.
And another one. It was external examination, so I guess it was more strict. BLEAH.
Only an Honours.
BUT GOODIE.

Btw. I'm addicted to those potato snacks.
HMMM. Know those wheel like thingys.

Weird day.

I did A LOT of thinking today. And I even noticed the small WEIRD things around me.

For a start, the chinese teacher didn't come, so it was 90 minutes of pure slacking.
I decided to sleep in class, so I laid down on two chairs that were side by side.
OK, THAT'S NOT THE POINT.

When I was closing my eyes. My msn convo popped into my mind.
And I remember my friend said this, "She's so fucking special."
Well yeah, I thought it was very idiotic.

I get it if you say, "It's so fucking hot in here." It kinda EMPHASIZES on the word HOT.
But you had said what my friend said, it draws the emphasis AWAY form the word SPECIAL doesn't it??

That was random thought NUMBER ONE.

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Number two:

There was Thanksgiving Service today. And Mrs Tan gave us this talk. And she mentioned about the three dimensions of life. Physical, Mental, and Spiritual Dimension.

She says that the Spiritual Dimension in life is the MOST challenging to achieve.
Actually, I think physical is more difficult.

At that point of time, MY FATS started to feel more obvious. Maybe I should go pro-dieting instead of anti.

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Number three:

I was walking home, and I decided to take the long route home (it was stupid considering that I sprained my ankle).
While I was walking past Bhavan's Indian International School, I saw a school bus which says C.H.I.J Toa Payoh. And IN the bus, there was an IJ girl sitting in it.

Quite stupid.
Oh well.

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Number four:

This also happened around Bhavan's Indian International School.

I saw a CHINESE P.E. teacher in the school grounds, and LET ME EXPLAIN TO YOU HOW THIS IS WEIRD.

All the children there are Indians, they speak Tamil MORE than half the time, and even if they do converse in English, it goes something like that.
"Vhat. The rain is coming down quite heawily. Hurrrry. (emphasizing on the 'r' sound)"

Yeah, not a very good sentence, but it was what one of the KIDS were saying.

And as you can infer, I was walking in the heavy rain, in uniform, with a sprained ankle.Without an umbrella.

It sounds quite emo to me.

My uniform was drenched. Stupid polka dots. But I still love it.

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AMPLIFY TOMORROW!

Where? Catholic Spirituality Centre.

When? Tomorrw, 7.45pm.

Lord.

I love you with all my heart.

Interhouse Games. A FLOP.

There were supposed to be interhouse games today. And it was a COMPLETE FLOP.

Tolley forfeited the entire tennis match for upper sec and lower sec.
And the upper sec netball team had to play for both the netball and basketball games.
OMGG.

Yeah, I played, and guess what?! My specs broke, I sprained my ankle, I got a cut on my face, and I got a cut on my knee.
My specs didn't really break, just that I had to use scotch tape to secure my left lens in place.

Right, and so it started raining... We went into shelter and waited for half an hour. We went out again, and IT STARTED RAINING AGAIN.
SO!!! We went into shelter again...

This time, after leaving shelter for the second time, we managed to play at least four games for each sport..
That was when my ankle was twisted, I got a cut on my knee and my face.
SWAY.

It started raining like crap halfway... AND ALL GAMES CEASED TO OPERATE.

The rain was great fun. We got all drenched!! WHOOO. Finally, I hope I fall sick. PON PON PON.

(Ok, beware, all photos that you are about to view. CONTAIN NAT. ego ego.)

WHOO. I like my hair spikey!
IT STANDS!

Amplify this Friday, I can't wait. Tomorrow will be the last day I'll get to be a SEC THREE OFFICIALLY. WHOO.

And my ankle still hurts.

Oh yes, I've not gone for the last three choir practices. I'm such a bad choir member.
Why oh why, I feel uncommitted to cca. SYF is next year.

Nat! You're quite useless!

Nat! You're quite useless!

While most of the secondary threes are out there having fun, there were -in some 6 classrooms in a school at Farrer Road- lessons going on today.

I must say this HEADSTART is a good idea, but hey. I feel stressed out already.

Reading so many people's blogs, I feel quite useless.
They all got something that they excel in... Something useful...

I excel in something quite worthless. Ministry Work. The evangelisation of God's word.
Problem is. No one quite listens these days. ):

I DON'T excel in my cca. CHOIR? HMM.
I DON'T deserve to be house captain. I feel as though I'm the cause for the constant last placing of my house.
I DON'T deserve to be in the Parish Youth Council in my church.
I DON'T deserve to be a leader in Legion.
I DON'T deserve all the love. Especially after all the shit that has happened to me this month.

And, what's more...

I DON'T DO WELL IN MY EXAMS.

Nat, buck up. You know you have to.
You know you want that single digit.

"It's not that you don't understand, it's just that you have to keep away from all distractions in your life Nat.

Nat, don't let me down.

Os Os Os. It's just Os.

COOL IT NAT."

Thanks.

Shit. I'm talking to the walllll.

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On a happier note, I controlled my temper VERY well today.
No one other than Errol and I went to church to lead the rosary and I felt completely pissed at that point of time. [And yeah, I held it in (this is childish, yes).]

They ALWAYS depend on a few people to say the rosary, and this has been going on for four years! LEGION, you gotta buck up.

Also, I managed another PB of climbing 22 stories within 2 minutes and 54 seconds.
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I was looking through my pictures, and I really miss the time where we climbed Mount Ophir. The first mountain I ever conquered. With the help of God, and friends.
It was the literally closest to heaven Nat's ever been.

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Another dilemma for Nat Fern.

Party with Amplify? vs Halloween Party at UAN?

Venue: Amplify at Bugis. UAN at Newton.

Time: Both are in the evening.

It's difficult. Considering that you don't want to let both PARTIES (group of people) down.
NOOOO.

Dear Lord,

All I want is you right now.

Stay beside me.

Really.

Amen.

I once was lost, but now i'm found

So far away, but now I'm home.

And my lifesong sings to YOU.

I once was blind, but now I see.

I don't know how, but when He touched me.

I once was blind, but now I see.

I once was dead, but now I live.

Now I give my life to you.

Empty Hands held high

Such Small sacrifice

If not joined with my life

I sing in vain tonight

May the words I say

And the things I do

Make my lifesong sing

Bring a smile to you

Random (V)

Haha. EUGENE. This post is entirely dedicated to YOU! (:


1. You have lost ALOT of weight from sec one. I have your pic!
2. I challenge you to not talk for one ENTIRE day.
3. I associated you with the colour orange the moment I saw you.
4. I kinda like your racism. It's funny. But please DON'T CONTINUE WITH IT. Damn hurtful.
5. My first clearest memory about you was at the kids' camp briefing. You came in LATE.
6. You remind me of a hamster! The cartoon type!
7. How do you remain so high even in times of CRAPPY-NESS?

JC1 CJC Catholic Retreat. (Before)

I'm posting this before the JC1 CJC Catholic Retreat which I will be going for. I'm facilitator. Not a participant, just in case you were thinking.


HMM.
MY thoughts.

• I have no idea who'll be in my group.
• I've yet to meet my co-facilitator, mainly because he doesn't wnat to reply my sms-es or reply my IMs.
• I will feel KID-DISH (but I shan't reveal my age to them, unless of course the participants already know me before-hand).

OH well.
I hope to get some pictures!! (:
See ya guys on Sunday.

Random (IV)

Fourth random post in a month.


Sam
1. I love hickory!
2. I challenge you to stick to your own number and not use your parents/grandma's.
3. I associate you with a rainbow!
4. I like your friendly-nesss.
5. MY FIRST CLEAREST MEMORY. Haha. Joshua's cousin! (:
6. You remind me of a pony.
7. How do you manage to fight with your sister so much??


ELVIE!!
1. I used to dislike you in primary 5. Because you took my seat away. -.-
2. I CHALLENGE you to call me everyday.
3. I associate you with the colour GREEEN.
4. What I like about you? Haha, I LIKE YOU AS A WHOLE.
5. My first clearest memory about you... THE GIRL WHO STOLE MY SEAT.
6. You remind me of a hedgehog. THOSE SONIC TYPE.
7. HOW THE HELL DID WE BECOME BEST FRIENDS? Opposites attract eh? We're simply inseparable.


Marcus.
1. I love your hair!
2. I challenge you to not stare at HOT NEIGHBOURHOOD GIRLS.
3. BLUE.
4. I LOVE YOU. haha.
5. The guy who helped my brother at Sec 1 registration day.
6. A A A A AA.... hmmm. ahha! A Pig. YOU EAT SO MUCH, and you don't grow fat..
7. When did I get married to you??

Results Day

Results Day.

What does it do to a student?

It makes a student go
"Ah, I'm so going to do badly."
"Damnit, I swear if I dont pass, I'll mug like crazy next time round." (They dont actually do that)
"SHIT SHIT SHIT. HOW HOW HOWWWW! If I don't do well, my parents are so going to kill me."


RINGS A BELL?

Well, you're most probably suffering from...
haha. I DNO. Let's create something...

RESULT-O-PHOBIA.

By the way.
People are actually fearful of the word fear.
OUTRAGEOUS. =s
Damn, what's the world coming to.

Heterophobia, Sexophobia - Fear of the opposite sex


EVEN FEAR OF THE OPPOSITE GENDER?
Crapppp.

Contracted this fear 'obssession' from marcus. WHOOHOO.

Random (III)

This is the third random post in my entire life. Well, I'm always random, but unconsciously...
This is I guess I AM conscious of it.


Tag my board, and..

1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll challenge you to try something.
3. I'll pick a colour I associate with you.
4. I'll tell you something I like about you.
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory about you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something I've always wanted to ask you.
8. You must post this on yours.

Haha, well. You don't need to do number 8 if you don't want to.
(:


Sam challenged me to NOT WEAR A SKIRT FOR A MONTH.
I'm so up for it! =P
I'm up for it! Well, I think not wearing heels for a month is a little more challenging sam.
WHEEHEE.




Bleach episode 63 now.
Thanks ALOT IAN! You got me hooked onto bleach.
But it's a lot nicer than naruto.
I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I'LL DO IF I DIDN'T HAVE MY JAP ANIME.

Kurosaki Ichigo! I LOVE YOU (:

Hehe. Random-ness is fun. TRY IT PEOPLE.

I'm so tired of thinking for now.

Totally drained from all the debates that I've been going thru with all those screwed up lowlifes.

SO... NO MORE SERIOUS POSTS FROM ME FOR A WHILE.

Back to my.. "I went to ____ in the morning. And I didn't know what to wear, so I....." type of posts!

BOREDOM-NESS! WHOOHOO.

Ok, maybe not.

After episode 80 I'll post something nice yeah?

Hehe. I'm going to finish episode 80 today! I PROMISE.

I wont be around on Friday and Saturday.
In CJC Catholic Retreat Service Team. I'm going to serve!
(: YAYYNESS.
Miss me. =P


P.S. Edwin. Schoolophobia sounds great. haha.

School-ophobia

I HATE SCHOOL.




I've contracted the i-dont-wna-go-ta-schoolophobia.
(Any better names? Tag my board.)



Had photoshoot today.
It was great. Just that they put TOO MUCH MAKE UP ON ME. I had to wash my face three times to get half the makeup off.

Went shopping yesterday too. Bought 100 dollars worth of stuff. ): AWWW MANN.
Bye bye money.


HALLOWEEN PARTY ON THE 28TH OF OCTOBER AT UNITED ARTIST NETWORK (UAN)!
PLEASE GO ARTISTES!! (:


I'm intending to throw a halloween party too. HMMMM.
Besides, that's another reason for me to grow fatter! Sweets.
TRICK OR TREAT!! Mwahaha.

Marcus' Hair = Nice.

I just realised Marcus' hair is quite nice.

I also just realised that Jap anime ROCKS.

I've not slept in a LONG time thanks to Bleach.
GREAT STUFF.





Results in a few days time.

Sex & Porn?

Just a few thoughts crossed my mind today.

• No one would have fallen in love unless he had first read about it. (Doesn't the same go for sex?)
• Pornography is the attempt to insult sex, and do dirt on it.
• What pornography is really about, ultimately, isn't sex but death.
• A widespread taste for pronography means that nature is alerting us to some threat of extinction (it is afterall ultimately death isn't it?).
• Pornography is rather like trying to find out about a Beethoven Symphony by having somebody tell you about it and perhaps hum a few bars.
• Reading about sex in yestereday's novels is like watching people smoke in old films (haha, RANDOM).
• In adolesence, pornography is a substitute for sex, whereas in adulthood, sex is a substititue for pornography (outgrowing adolesence sounds FUN eh).
  
• (This is rather crude, but SO TRUE) It's a trade off; more brain or more penis. You can't have everything.

Shattered.

In her heart will be the capacity to love till it hurts.

It hurts now.
It'll hurt for a little while more.


Why don't you just say.
"Hey Nat, I don't love you any longer. I'm sorry for what I did. I just did it cuz you were hot."

Right, at least he thinks I'm hot.


Hmm.
So he has a girlfriend with the same surname as me.
How coincidental.


The most sensitive part of my being?
MY HEART.

Break it. You die.
You just broke it. But I dont want you to die.
I cant believe it.
I just LOVE you.


I'm reminded of the song "Prodigal Son".
Just that you aint my son.

I forgive you.
I love you.
You are mine, take my hand.
Go in peace, sin no more.
Beloved one.

Adrenaline

I swear I'm addicted to adrenaline.

I wish for the existence of adrenaline pills.

What would happen then?

• People would just keep buying the adrenaline pills and exercise which causing that "high" feeling would soon be gone.
• With exercise gone, people would grow fatter than they already are (that partially includes me, I swear without exercise, I wouldn't go anti-dieting).
• People would probably be rowdy the entire day because they depend too much on the adrenaline pill, they'll probably get an overdose. That leads to more social unrest. OH MANN, this sounds social studies, but I'm sure the effects aren't that serious.
• Without adrenaline being naturally produced, glands aren't working. And that makes our body a piece of junk? HMMM.

Well well. Go exercise everyone!
Exams are over!! No reason to slack.
By the way, if anyone wants to play tennis! I'm UP FOR IT!


Got my personal best timing today for 4km.
23 mins 47 secs. WHOOHOO.



Adrenaline is also known as Epinephrine.
Haha, never knew.

Dyslexic?

Sorry for that dry post.
But it kinda makes sense yeah?


Okay.

Q: Have you ever heard of the dyslexic devil worshipper?

A: He sold his soul to satan!!

HAHA!

Letting GO?

Sooner or later, everyone you know will disappoint you in some way.

hey'll say something or fail to say something that will hurt you.
And they'll do something or fail to do something that will anger you.
It's able.
Unfortunately, you make things worse when you stew over someone's words and deeds.

When you dwell on a rude remark or an insensitive action made by another person,
you're headed for deeper problems.
In fact, the more you dwell on these things, the more bitter you'll get.

You'll find your joy, peace and happiness slipping away.
And you'll find your productivity slowing down as you find more and more time thinking about the slight or telling others about it.
Eventually, if you don't stop doing it, you'll even get sick.
So what should you do the next time someone betrays you?

TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR YOUR FEELINGS.
Even though the other person may be at fault, even though the other person wronged you, you are still responsible for your own feelings.

In other words, other people do not "cause" your feelings.
You choose them.


Finally, you need to FORGIVE.
It's difficult, especially when the other person doesn't deserve your forgiveness or doesn't even seek it.
It's difficult when the other person is clearly in the wrong.

Part of the difficulty comes from a common misunderstanding of forgiveness.

Forgiveness doesn't mean that the other person's behavior is okay.
And forgiveness doesn't mean that the other person is off the hook.
He's still responsible for his misbehavior.

Forgiveness is about letting yourself off the emotional hook.
It's about releasing your negative emotions, attitudes, and behaviors. It's about letting go of the past so you can go forward to the future.

Everyone in your life, everyone on and off the job is going to disappoint you.
If you know how to respond to those situations, you'll be way ahead of most people.
You'll be able to live above and beyond your circumstances.


Ask yourself,
Is my life richer, fuller, and better because of my bitterness?"

If you find that your bitterness is hurting you, make a decision.
Decide to let it go.

Walk away from the disappointment -- which means you no longer dwell on it or talk about it.


The CHOICE is yours!

Virginity

Everywhere you go, people are non-virgins, and how many actually dare to say they are PURE. CLEAN.
Very few, sadly.

Well, it's been really horrible for me this entire year. People coming up to me, telling me..
"Hey, I've lost it."


And yes. What more pain does one endure especially when it is a person you love who tells you that he/she has lost his/her virginity.

I SWEAR THE PAIN IS UNBEARABLE. Too much even for an adult to bear.


Infatuations... People say what I go through is merely an infatuation.
I doubt it. I know what it's like to love.
But as a kid, I can't bring myself to do anything more than just stare at you from a distance.


This question has been resounding in my head ever since god knows when.
"Why do guys require girls to be virgins, when they themselves screw every girl they see?"

FUCK.


Physics paper tomorrow, I better concentrate.
Besides, there's nothing I can do now.
He's lost it.
The one I ever loved.
Seems like the truth is hurting me like a thousand knives going through my heart.

WELL NAT!
This fucked up world seems to be turning its back against you.

Finally. A haircut.

I finally managed to get a haircut.
The previous one was killing me. Stupid weather. Stupid humidity.

Felt ego. So..

Who is God?

Amplify God's attributes

What is God? Is God just another being who was the chosen one?

God's riches are great! He owns the entire universe. Every star in space, every galaxy, down to each and every one of us and every atom, proton, and all that chemistry stuff.
He owns the earth, and all in contains. He owns the galaxies are lightyears away. He owns the highest of heavens. Whatever exists, he owns.

And God is able to make something out of nothing. Compared to us, we are incapable of that. We need raw materials. A table for example, we need wood, we need nails, we need tools. At a snap of a finger, God is able to create a table before your very eyes. Pray hard enough and you might see it happen. HAVE FAITH!


Wisdom and knowledge are commonly interchangable in the bible. God has both. He is both knowledgable and wise. What's the use of being the wisest person in the world, yet you're so ill-informed of all current affairs. And what's the use of being the most knowledgable person, yet you do not know how to put that knowledge to GOOD USE.

God knows EVERYTHING.
God knows everything from macro-scale to micro-scale.
He knows how the earth is revolving around the sun. He knows which countries are facing natural disaster. He knows where each and everyone of us are. He knows every electron and it's position at each nano-second.

Not only that, he knows each and everyone of our emotions. What we are going through in life, what problems we are facing. He knows our past, our present and our future. He has a large blueprint right on his desk, planning everything out for us.


I feel that humans are very guilty of a sin we ourselves aren't very aware of.
WE TEND TO ADVICE GOD.
In Romans 11:34, it says, "WHO IS ABLE TO GIVE HIM ADVICE?"

This is a clear cut rhetorical question.
NO ONE is able to give him advice. No one at all.
And most of the time when we pray....
"Hey God, maybe you should have done it this way..."
"Hey God, why didn't you allow what I wanted to happen?"
"Hey God, you should have made ___ appear at (whatever) time!"

We are constanly advicing God. He knows what he has for us. And all he asks for is our FAITH.
Ever seen God calling up one of the lay people asking,
"Eh, now there are terrorists bombings in the middle east countries. How? What should I do?"

God never fails us, and he never will. He created us, he is responsible for us, and he'll give the BEST care anyone can ever give.


Ever wondered why certain things the way they are.. And some questions can just go on and on and on..
You give an answer, the person says. WHY! And you give an answer to that WHY, and he/she asks why again.
I'm confident, that one point or another, ALL questions lead to one answer, and you've guessed it. It's GOD (:

So let us all try to understand God better each and every day of our lives. His riches are so great, his wisdom and knowledge deep.
He has called us to be his disciples and follow him. Follow him and live with him in eternity where we all partake in his everlasting fellowship and love.

Romans 11:33-36.

How great are God's riches! How deep are his wisdom and knowledge. Who can
explain his decisions? Who can understand his ways?
As the scripture says, "Who knows the mind of the Lord?
Who is able to give him advice?
Who has ever given him anything, so that he had to pay it back?"
For all things were created by him, and all things exist through him and
for him. To God be the glory forever! Amen.

Muse

supermassive black hole-muse

Muse is food for the soul.

Vid blogging is what I'm only free to do now.

I'm sorry. Something constructive will come up when I have the inspiration..

Truth About Dating - From the Guys.

truth about dating (guy's perspective)

It's time to prepare yourself for God's best.

Great vid. Guys who can actually think. (:

Mr J. The Constance

SI Grand Finals, Jonathan Leong first song

singapore idol grand final, Jonathan Leong first song

RIGHT. So Jon sang it ALOT better. And even Dick said so.

DICK, Why didn't he win then?

SI Judge's Choice. Jon Leong (Song 1)

jonathan leong singapore idol Judges Choice (song 1)

Dick said "Keep singing like that and you'll win."

Let's see what happens when he sings it again..

An Interview you would never want to miss!

Nathalie has been blogging for four years now. She's on to her fith year real soon. A few of our journalists from 'Live2Blog' met up with her over some ice cream at Haagen Dazs and talked a little about her blogging life.

She ordered he all time favourite Belgian Chocolate ice-cream and dug in as we interviewed her.


Live2Blog: So Nat, what's your full name?
Nathalie: Nathalie Fern. Let's just leave it as that.

You have been blogging for the past five years of your life. What made you start blogging?
I started blogging as a primary school kid at Primary 5. I was attracted to the idea of sharing your thoughts with others.

How many blogs do you own, and what do you normally write about?
Well, I own about 5 blogs. I moderate a group blog, the Legion of Mary blog. The other four are blogs such as food blogs, and blogs set up with friends.

Aren't you worried that too much blogging would affect your studies? I mean, many students go on hiatus during the examination period. Why don't you go on a hiatus too?
Personally, I feel that going on a hiatus is of no motivation to me to study. I still do see students going online and chatting with their friends. I like to think of it this way. You incorporate learning into blogging. Voicing my thoughts and discussing very real issues has indeed helped me in my expository essays.

Voicing your thoughts...
Don't we all read the papers daily. We read off the papers. We accept and we absorb the information as though it's food for us. We don't really know what's going up into that brain of ours. Discuss, come to a conclusion and filter out what's bad, absorb the good stuff.

What are some of the thought processes that goes through your mind when you blog?
My thought process? It varies really... Depending on the topic I'm blogging about. When I blog about real issues, deep thought must be given to the issue. Mindmaps are drawn out, defining keywords, and points are established.

On to my next point. You said you started in primary four, do you still remember what your first post was like?
"I want a moment to be real. Want to touch things I don't feel. Want to hold on and feel I belong.It is not life that weighs you down. It is how you carry it.These days - the stars seem out of reach . But these days - there ain't a ladder on these streets . These days are fast, love don't lasts-in this graceless age. Even innocence has caught the morning train . And there ain't nobody left but us these days."
That was my first post. It's in another blog though.
This is also how my blog name came about. -grins

Ever thought of changing your blog url?
Yes, but I decided to stick to it. It has been with me for the past five years. After all, I can't think of anything else to put other than nathalie-.blogspot.com. Quite unoriginal, plus, it's kinda EGOISTIC don't you think so?

You are quite an unknown blogger. Ever want to make it big one day?
Why yes. I'll take one little baby step at a time though. I need time to bloom.
First, I need to find an identity for myself.

Find an identity?
Yes, I'm currently still looking for an identity for myself. I have yet to settle down on character I would like to portray myself as.

Ever thought of blogging as a chore?
NEVER! Blogging is something I would never think of as a chore. It is a platform for me voice my thoughts and to stand up for what I believe in. Haha, (grins slyly) I find homework a chore though!

Talking about homework, you seem to be online very often. You are said to be seen online even at 4am in the morning! How do you fare in school?
I do fairly well in school. Enough to make my mummy happy! Well, I do ocassionally come online at 4 am. But that's quite rare.

What are some areas in your life that you wish you had developed earlier on?
The ARTS! Definitely the arts. I love being vocal, and that's what I do best. Keep me in a corner for a day and I'll go mad. I PROMISE.

You are said to be very stern and serious at times. Let loose?
Haha, okay. I'll let loose. Here's a joke for you guys.
Why did the kid crawl into school five minutes after 9:00 AM?
Because the teacher said not to walk in late!!!


Thank you.

Teenage relationships?

My view on teenage relationships.
A simple NO.

Teenagers (young adults as some of them would like to term it) undergo a period in their life known as puberty. Hormones are raging, actions are usually impulsive, and they are searching for their own identities.

Basically, whatever you do, whatever you say to your partner in a relationhip at such a young age, IT'S MOSTLY an act.
A few years down the road, you turn to your partner and you think to yourself. "Why am I together with him/her? Is this what I wanted in the first place?"
You realise that you have nothing much to gain from this relationship that you have desired so badly for.

This is something called 'void love' and 'face value' according to Hansel.


Some thoughts about relationships for teenagers.

• Think about it, is face value what you want eventually.
• If you know what true love is. GO ahead! It's great to share love. But always be careful. You might never know what the other person is thinking.
• Teenage relationships are damaging to the heart. One heartache leads on to another. Your first breakup will spur you on to get into a new relationship to mend that broken-ness. Think again, will this new relationship cause you to have another heartbreak? If the answer is most likely yes, WAIT, because God always has a plan for you. You WILL meet that guy/girl that was made for you. When these relationships have caused you to be broken, by the time you are a working adult.. You would be such a broken man/woman. Don't risk it.
• Most married couples stay together longer if they've had only a few relationships before that (there are always exceptions). Notice the increasing trend of early marriages and divorces seen in Singapore these past years? Do put a stop to it!

STAND UP!
Voice your views. It's a right every one of us is entitled to!
If you feel sex, alcoholism, and drugs is the way to go. Have it your way. It's a free world.
Besides, all these are just bad habits, it doesn't define a person. The person might not necessarily be bad now isn't it?

Top Ten Trivia Tips about Nathalie!

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Nathalie!

1. Worldwide, Nathalie is the most important natural enemy of night-flying insects.
2. Oranges, lemons, watermelons, pineapples and Nathalie are all berries.
3. Japan provides over thirty percent of the world's Nathalie supply.
4. If you keep a goldfish in a dark room, it will eventually turn into Nathalie!
5. All gondolas in Venice must be painted black unless they belong to Nathalie!
6. Nathalie is 1500 years older than the pyramids.
7. Nathalie is black with white stripes, not white with black stripes!
8. Nathalie was first grown in America by the grandmother Maria Ann Smith, from whom her name comes.
9. It can take Nathalie several days to move just through one tree!
10. Duelling is legal in Paraguay as long as both parties are Nathalie.

I am interested in - do tell me aboutherhimitthem

There you go. fun facts about Nat you never knew. There's legion in a few hours time. And I'm not in bed.
Congrats. I'm sure I'll oversleep again. Just like how i overslept today when I was supposed to go for curia meeting.

ANW.
THE WORLD SEEMS TO BE REAL CRAP RIGHT NOW.

PHYSICS FOR NOW.